the course runs long and deep

Saying that you "have" cancer one day, and then entering into the life that follows is a course that runs long and deep... November 20th was the biopsy, and November 22nd seemed like a million years to wait for the results. You hear the words spoken to you and for me in that moment, I went numb. December 12th was the first surgery and then results meant that I needed a second surgery one week from the last. I am processing and healing and dreaming and hurting at times, resting at others and all together my life is changed.

So many people from everywhere it feels like are showering us with love and prayers and cards and expressions of heart that fill our lives, truly in a deep way. I had two dreams on the 21st and 22nd that I have to write down because they define this part of the course...

This is way past "creative edge" time... this is "life edge" time and I am standing strong with a lot of help from my friends.

From the spiritual to the silly, moments take on new meaning and I am determined not to miss what is in front of my face, and in places I have not noticed before...