gratitude beyond words...

How can I ever express all the gratitude that is overflowing in my heart for so many people? Getting diagnosed with cancer meant that I faced death and saw Life like I never did before. It meant being so overwhelmed at times I felt as if I was in a dense fog that would swallow me up, and then there would be loving hands reaching in so I could grab hold and walk into the light.

I had no idea how much I loved people and I had absolutely no idea of how many people loved me, too... I have read things that cancer survivors write and one thing that jumps off the page so many times is that on this path, your life and your view of life in general is completely changed. I am still recuperating from some big-guns treatments. I do not have the vantage point now of years down the road, or even knowing if this first round is effective yet. I do know that I am filled with gratitude, way beyond words to so many people, many I have never even met...

There is so much more that I want to give. No person has any guarantees on time. How wonderful that Love is infinite and eternal...

breaking through to my Spring

On March 18th, I personally declared Spring a little earlier than the calendar. It was the first day in almost exactly four months that I felt kinda like me again. I heard that two to three weeks after the big-guns treatments that that would start to happen, and it was like a fog lifted... so, for me, it was my Spring Day.

I also "heard" that it would mean ups and downs and sure enough the few days after that, but still, I declare Spring. The grass is actually getting green, the buds are coming on the trees... I picked up some art supplies in my studio and made something - & that felt good.

My kids are really happy that Spring Break officially starts at the end of the school day today, and I have always done something about that - so we'll do something to celebrate together. The simplest things can mean so much...